Wednesday, 5 November 2014

If Letters Were Paper Airplanes- Written by Nichola J Feltham, 2014. ©

These letters are the only things,
I can give to you.
I'm sorry they're not wings,
That fly to you

On a windy day,
Through the rain.
I wish there was a way,
To turn them into paper airplanes.

To carry you down,
to come and replace,
This permanent frown,
Punched across my face.

So you'd know you're loved,
And wouldn't have to see,
From up above,
My hand so empty.

Because I don't feel
Your hand in mine,
So I can't conceal,
That I'm not fine.

If only when my words touch paper,
I could fold it again and again,
To reach you later,
Carrying you down in a paper airplane.



Monday, 11 August 2014

If I Was A Pie (POEM)

This is what happens when I'm bored and I have writer's block! Sarcastic poems flow out.

If I was a pie,
Which I'm not,
I would dream about pies,
Cold and hot.

I'd guess their filling,
Meat and Potato?
Or chicken?
I don't know.

Is it gravy?
Or Cheese?
Hiding inside,
Tell me please.

Is it squidgy?
Or hard?
Play football with it,
In the yard.

But I'm not a pie,
So I'll stop,
Daydreaming,
In the middle of the shop.

Written by Nichola J Feltham, 2014.

Sunday, 10 August 2014

Falling Into You (POEM)

Taking notes,
By the fireplace,
The words begin to blur,
As I fall into a gaze.

I write, I miss you,
So desperately,
And it's a little harder,
Just lately.

I'll give it all,
To bring you back,
Turn the skies bright,
Instead of black.

I'd bring down the moon,
And catch the stars,
If it meant,
I could be where you are.


Written by Nichola J Feltham 2014 ©

Dreams (SONG)

Dreams

Verse

A letter through the letter box, changed everything,
Your dreams inside a little brown envelope,
Moving you along to New York City,
And then I hand it over for you to see,
And I say follow your dreams,
They’ll take you where you want to be,
Don’t lose your spark in this town waiting on me,
Spread those beautiful wings and fly,
I won’t let you lose that hope in your eyes,
There’s no need to cry,
Catch the next plane out of here,
I won’t be the reason your dreams die.

Chorus

And you turn to me and say,
I searched for you my whole life,
Leaving you would cut me deeper than leaving any dream behind,
I love you too damn much,
And I can’t live without your touch,
You’re all I ever dreamt about,
So before you tell me to follow my dreams,
Know without a doubt,
That my biggest dream has always been you,
If you’re not catching the next plane out of here,
Then I’m staying right here with you,
In this little town,
Where we clown around,
And say we love each other without making a sound,
Living my dreams with you, with you, with you.

Verse

Sit down and hear me out,
Baby you’re worth more than this town,
The people around here, they’re just bringing you down,
 You’ve got a better life waiting out there,
And I only say this because I care,
You’re walking in the wrong shoes,
These ones don’t fit you,
You’re leaving footprints that are too small,
Stop trying to retrace your steps,
Because there’s different barriers to yesterday,
We both know you can jump higher walls,
Don’t stay for me,
You know I’ve never been so in love,
My heart smiles when I hear your name,
That’s why you have to fly,
Because your dreams mean more to me,
Than how happy you make me,
And I say this with tears in my eyes,
The traffic lights turning green,
Got a tank full of gas,
Drive away and don’t look back.

Chorus

And you turn to me and say,
I searched for you my whole life,
Leaving you would cut me deeper than leaving any dream behind,
I love you too damn much,
And I can’t live without your touch,
You’re all I ever dreamt about,
So before you tell me to follow my dreams,
Know without a doubt,
That my biggest dream has always been you,
If you’re not catching the next plane out of here,
Then I’m staying right here with you,
In this little town,
Where we clown around,
And say we love each other without making a sound,
Living my dreams with you, with you, with you.

Verse

I take your hand and say hold on a minute,
There’s nothing left for me in this town if you leave,
We’ve got a tank of gas and a plane to catch,
The traffic lights are screaming go,
Take me with you,
I’d be crazy to let you go,
I’ve never been this in love before,
I’ll walk in front of you and open every door,
Roll out the red carpet,
Place your name where you’re going to sit,
Because your dreams are mine,
And I’ll do all I can to make them come true,
So I’m coming with you,
And it’s simple,
Simply because, I’m madly in love with you,
And my dream has always been you.

Chorus

And you turn to me and say,
I searched for you my whole life,
Leaving you was never an option,
I love you too damn much,
And I can’t live without your touch,
You’re all I ever dreamt about,
So before you tell me to follow my dreams,
Know without a doubt,
That my biggest dream has always been you,
We’re catching the next plane out of here,
Because I’m not leaving without you,
I want to wake up to the sound of your breath,
Kiss you until there’s no air left,
And say we love each other without making a sound,

Living my dreams with you, with you, with you.

You're Not Home

Memory lane,
It isn't that long,
The good in the bad,
It's not all gone.

Stars don't shine,
So bright any more,
When another one opens,
It's not always a better door.

Crossroads become harder,
Roads start to crumble,
Making you proud,
Keeps me humble.

The days drag by,
Yet go so fast,
Like happiness,
It doesn't last.

Some things don't matter,
But still people moan,
I ignore their silly cries,
Because you're not home.


Nichola J Feltham, 2014 ©

Monday, 24 March 2014

Two (SONG)

I’m lying here on the floor,
Wishing I could walk through that door,
Into your bedroom where you lay,
Making me smile every day,
And I’d grab you in my arms,
You’d hold onto my bracelet, playing with the charms,
With your little finger tips,
I’d kiss you on your lips,
Rocking you back to sleep,
And I wouldn’t hear a peep,
How I wish I could hear a peep...

Trust me when I say, I say this in the saddest way,
With my heart left empty,
Knowing you’re not beside me,
So, on the count of three,         
For my beautiful baby,
One, two, three...
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to my whole life,
Happy birthday to you,
Today you would be two.

I’d be listening to your soft voice,
But I bet you it could make some noise,
I’d trip over your toys in the hallway,
You’d spill food all down me,
And cover my eyes so I can’t see,
And you’d take your first step,
I’d have it on a video I kept,
You’d have said your first word,
And coloured me a picture of a ladybird,
You’re next birthday would be your third,
And your laugh would be the most beautiful sound I’d ever heard.

Trust me when I say, I say this in the saddest way,
With my heart left empty,
Knowing you’re not beside me,
So, on the count of three,         
For my beautiful baby,
One, two, three...
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to my whole life,
Happy birthday to you,
Today you would be two.

And my life would be amazing,
I’d sneak in your room to watch you sleep all night, just gazing,
I’d spend hours listening to you breathe,
Knowing the day didn’t exist where you had to leave,
And I wouldn’t know how it felt to lose you,
Because you’d be here and I’d protect you,
Believe me when I say,
Finding out about you was the most amazing day,
And I’ll always remember the 11th May,
And how my smile was stolen when you went away,
I only have one thing left to say, on your birthday...

Trust me when I say, I say this in the saddest way,
With my heart left empty,
Knowing you’re not beside me,
So, on the count of three,
For my beautiful baby,
One, two, three...
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to my whole life,
Happy birthday to you,
Today you would be two.

Next year you would be three,
I wish you were here to count with me,
One, two, three,
Happy birthday to you,

Today you would be two...

Thursday, 20 March 2014

Something About You (SONG) by Nichola J Feltham

There’s something about you,
That won’t let me leave,
Is it the way you make my heart smile,
Or the way you wear your heart on your sleeve,
Or the tingle through my body when you run your fingers down my chest,
Or maybe it’s the fact that you know me the best,
And that you’re not like the rest,
The ones that burn footprints into your heart,
Whilst tearing it apart,
And it never made any sense, until I was back at the start,
With a different guy,
One that wouldn’t make me cry,
Because it would kill him inside,
Now you leave me singing, oh my, oh my.

Oh my, oh my,
What a beautiful guy,
There’s something about him I can’t quite figure out,
And I’m falling in love with everything he’s about,
He love’s staying up talking all night,
Knows the difference between wrong and right,
A strong believer in love at first sight,
And I think he loves me too, oh he just might.
And I’m left singing, oh my, oh my,
What a beautiful guy.

I used to walk around on my tiptoes,
Trying to avoid the pain,
And everybody that knows me knows,
With you it’s just not the same,
I tell them ‘Man he’s amazing,
And I think he could be the one,
He wants to take me star gazing,
And wake up next to me under the sun,
I didn’t think he was out there,
And the walls around my heart, they don’t even care,
They’re just letting him in,
Letting him become my everything.’
And he makes my heart sing,
He makes it sing...

Oh my, oh my,
What a beautiful guy,
There’s something about him I can’t quite figure out,
And I’m falling in love with everything he’s about,
He love’s staying up talking all night,
Knows the difference between wrong and right,
A strong believer in love at first sight,
And I think he loves me too, oh he just might.
And I’m left singing, oh my, oh my,
What a beautiful guy.

It’s hard to stand when he’s around,
He’s got me falling, falling to the ground,
And the way he catches my body against his chest,
Reminds me he’s not like the rest,
And he knows me best, he knows me best,
Our hands are the perfect fit,
I can tell he loves me by the way he kisses my lips,
And now he has my tummy in knots when he tells me,
‘I’m so in love with you’
And I don’t hesitate to give him all of me,
And I say ‘I’m so in love with you too,
You’ve taken away my frown,
Tipped my whole world upside down,
And I’d love for you to stick around,
You’ve stopped my heart from stinging,
And you’ve got my heart singing.’
It’s singing, oh my, oh my.

Oh my, oh my,
What a beautiful guy,
There’s something about you I can’t quite figure out,
And I’m falling in love with everything you’re about,
You love staying up talking all night,
Know the difference between wrong and right,
A strong believer in love at first sight,
And the way you love me, it’s never felt so right.
My heart keeps singing, oh my, oh my,
What a beautiful guy.

What a beautiful guy...

Friday, 14 March 2014

Prince of everything charming by N.J. Feltham (14.03.14) ©

First draft.
This is for my wonderful boyfriend, the most amazing and talented guy I've ever met. 

My eyes followed him as he walked by, 
I second glanced at this handsome guy,
There was something about him,
I couldn't quite figure out,
The way he smiled, left me with no doubt.

Over conversations and wine,
I gave him my time,
As our walls fell down,
Our bodies disarming,
He became my prince of everything charming. 

Thursday, 13 March 2014

No title

I don't like writing poetry that doesn't rhyme, but being a Creative Writing student I have to do these things so here it is. Plus it's a first draft so is bad anyway. 

If you don't have anything nice to say,
Don't say anything at all,
My mother used to say.

Would she rather I not speak?
Than to hear me say,
I don't like your new boyfriend.

I don't like his car,
I don't like his hands,
Nor do I like his prickly face.

If she listened,
When I had nothing nice to say,
About her new boyfriend.

She would know why,
Why I don't like his car, or his hands,
Nor do I like his prickly face.

When he takes me in his car,
He touches me with those hands,
And kisses me with his prickly face.

I don't have anything nice to say,
So I sit here in silence,
And all I hear is, tick tock, tick tock. 


Wednesday, 12 March 2014

Scream Louder (poem) by N.J. Feltham 12.03.14 FIRST DRAFT

This is a first draft so the quality is poor, but the love behind it is rich.

The way your scream,
Would start to irritate me,
As it became louder,
And it became harder to breathe.

I'd open my eyes,
As best as I could,
At three forty seven in the morning,
Just as you would.

Some days,
All you'd do is cry,
And I'd crinkle my face,
As you turned the volume up high.

And I'd never realise,
How lucky I am.
To have you screaming,
From AM to PM.

But instead I lay here in silence,
Wondering why,
You were taken from earth,
To live in the sky.


Wednesday, 19 February 2014

Losing A Diamond (SONG) by N.J. Feltham

Now I'm not into those material things,
Don't need designer clothes or big flashy rings,
Just need the joy she brings,
And the way she sings.
Her dimpled cheeks and little annoying things. 
But I was blind to see,
What she really means to me,
Too busy with the guys,
To ever realise.

I'm losing a diamond
In all the busy haze,
And I'm trying to find her,
In this messed up maze.
She'll be gone if I don't catch her,
Show her I've changed my ways,
I'm running to find her,
Cause I'm running out of days. 
I'm losing a diamond,
Because I don't listen when she says...

I'll be gone if you don't love me,
The way I should be loved,
You need to show me what we can be,
Because I'm giving up on us.
Please listen when I tell you,
I love you so damn much,
But I don't like you like I used to,
Because you keep messing things up. 
So please just love me the right way,
And I will always stay,
If you don't listen to what I say,
Then I'll be gone one day. 

I'm losing a diamond
In all the busy haze,
And I'm trying to find her,
In this messed up maze.
She'll be gone if I don't catch her,
Show her I've changed my ways,
I'm running to find her,
Cause I'm running out of days. 
I'm losing a diamond,
Because I don't listen when she says...

You don't love me like you used too,
I'm always second best,
I put everything in me and you,
Don't tell me to 'give it a rest'. 
You're breaking everything we made,
I can feel us fade. 
Just fight for everything we had,
Before it gets too bad,
And you'll be the one left feeling sad,
And all I'll be is mad. 

I'm losing a diamond
In all the busy haze,
And I'm trying to find her,
In this messed up maze.
She'll be gone if I don't catch her,
Show her I've changed my ways,
I'm running to find her,
Cause I'm running out of days. 
Im running out of days,
I've ran out of days...

I've lost a diamond
In all the busy haze,
And It's too late to find her,
In this messed up maze.
She's gone because I didn't catch her,
Too stupid to changed my ways,
I'm still running to find her,
But I've ran out of days. 
I've lost a diamond, left with a lonely bed,
Because I didn't listen to the words she said.

Monday, 17 February 2014

For Courtney!

This isn't like every friendship,
we're still only at the tip,
And when I'm around you I come unzipped,
We built it from the bottom,
Now your problems, I'll try and solve them,
We'll laugh and cry together,
From now until forever,
And pretend I don't know who crashed the buggy and dinted the cafe,
They'll never know how much it made is laugh. 

So I promise to stick by you,
And do anything for you.
You never need to feel alone,
As long as I'm here you're never on your own.
With every 'I'm here for you' message I send,
Know that I mean it when I say I'm here until the very end.
I've got your back,
And when the world can take you down with just one flick,
Remember I'm your Spongebob and you're my Patrick.


It's the times we spend together,
and build something we thought we'd never,
Driving around in my car,
being anywhere that you are,
never being too far,
when you're picking at a scar.
Laughing at the tiny things,
And fixing each others broken wings.
You pick me up when I bend,
And stick around until I mend.
I promise.

I promise to stick by you,
And do anything for you.
You never need to feel alone,
As long as I'm here you're never on your own.
With every 'I'm here for you' message I send,
Know that I mean it when I say I'm here until the very end.
I've got your back,
And when the world can take you down with just one flick,
Remember I'm your Spongebob and you're my Patrick.

You'll have your bad days and good,
I'll be there when you're feeling misunderstood,
If I could take your pain away, trust me I would,
I'd walk a trillion miles,
To give you back that smile,
I'll save you if I can,
I'll be your batman! ;) 

Listen to me when I promise to stick by you,
And do anything for you.
You never need to feel alone,
As long as I'm here you're never on your own.
With every 'I'm here for you' message I send,
Know that I mean it when I say I'm here until the very end.
I've got your back,
And when the world can take you down with just one flick,
Just remember...
I'm your Spongebob and you're my Patrick.

Sunday, 16 February 2014

Thank You (SONG) by N.J. Feltham 16.02.14 ©

I've got a lot to say to you,
Don't get your hopes up,
Because this is something new,
So before you say 'what's up?'
Just know, nothing thanks to you.
He treats me right,
And holds me all through the night.
He opens the door,
And gives me so much more.
And I really adore,
That I feel his love right to my core.
So I'm ringing to say,
I've got a lot to thank you for today. 

Cause now I get to wake up next to him,
And give him my everything.
Be the reason he smiles,
And love him for miles and miles.
And I'll cradle his heart,
And crave his touch every second our bodies are apart.
He'll give me a white dress,
And stick by me through the mess.
So thank you past,
Because this one is my last. 
My last, my last, my last.
My last, my last, my last. 

The broken heart,
That was a necessary part,
For me to say wait, I'm feeling a brand new start. 
To pull me to pieces,
So he could straighten out the creases. 
You made me so blind,
But now I've got a brand new mind.
And now I can see,
That you're not affecting me,
Cause this is all I ever thought that love should be.
So I'm not coming back,
I just thought you should know that...

Cause now I get to wake up next to him,
And give him my everything.
Be the reason he smiles,
And love him for miles and miles.
And I'll cradle his heart,
And crave his touch every second our bodies are apart.
He'll give me a white dress,
And stick by me through the mess.
So thank you past,
Because this one is my last. 
My last, my last, my last.
My last, my last, my last. 

Now I realise, 
He sees my worth through his eyes.
He comes with no lies,
And there's not a day that he doesn't try. 
He makes me laugh more than you ever could,
And gives me his time more than you ever would.
So when you said I couldn't get better than you,
You came off looking like the fool. 
So let me pass you onto him,
This is my everything...

Hey man this could have been you,
If you knew how to treat my boo.
Cause now I get to wake up next to her,
And give her my everything.
Be the reason she smiles,
And love her for miles and miles.
And I'll cradle her heart,
And crave her touch every second our bodies are apart.
I'll give her a white dress,
And she'll stick by me through the mess.
So I'm thanking her past,
Because she is my last. 
My last, my last, my last.
My last, my last, my last.

This could be your life,
If you knew how to treat her right.
So I'm thanking you,
Now I'll do what you couldn't do.







In The Morning SONG Written By N.J. Feltham

Inspired by Justin Nozuka, Six60 and Jack Johnson! Amazing artists.

Quarter past three, my phone won’t stop ringing because now you want me,
Been out drinking with James, Jack and Vinny.
Saying all you want is me.
And I must be a fool when it comes to you,
Because picking up the pieces is all I do,
When my phone starts ringing off the hook,
Then all it takes is one look, one damn look.
And I’m mad at myself,
Because you put me through hell.

And I know in the morning you’ll be gone,
Because we’ve been doing this for far too long,
And boy it’s the same old song,
The way you’ve been loving me, boy it’s wrong.
And I’m wasting my time,
Because you spend all yours lying,
But I’m finally happy to say our love is dying,
And I won’t be waiting up at night for you crying.

This time you’re going to leave,
And give me room to breathe,
Cause I’m taking my heart off my sleeve.
Putting it back in my pocket,
Till the right one comes to unlock it.
Because I know you like the back of my hand,
You let me slip through your fingers like tiny grains of sand.
And you'll think you’re coming back, when you ring me again at quarter past three,
But the only one answering, will be the guy you let get next to me.

Because I know in the morning you’ll be gone,
Because we’ve been doing this for far too long,
And boy it’s the same old song,
The way you’ve been loving me, boy it’s wrong.
And I’m wasting my time,
Because you spend all yours lying,
But I’m finally happy to say our love is dying,
And I won’t be waiting up at night for you crying.

It’s too late to argue that you loved me right,
Because you brought me flowers Saturday night.
Two years ago, on Valentine’s day,
But who am I to argue, you’re always right ey?
Well not for me,
And I can see that it’s not you I want next to me.
So get up in the morning and go,
I won’t be looking back, no, no.

You get to waste nights at the pub with your mates,
Go on a million 'just not the same' dates.
You’ve got so much to look forward,
A whole new, same old you.
Don’t worry about what you left behind,
Trust me she’ll be just fine.
She knows where she’s going and how,
It starts with giving up on you, right now.

Because she knows in the morning you’ll be gone,
Because you’ve been doing this for far too long,
And boy it’s the same old song,
The way you loved her, boy it was so wrong.
And she’s not wasting her time,
Because you spent all yours lying,
She’s finally happy to say her love for you is dying,
And that’s the last time she’ll wait up at night for you crying.


Wednesday, 12 February 2014

The Coffee Shop (SONG) By Nichola. J. Feltham 12.02.14

Writing song lyrics for future work with my Sister-In-Law as she sings, exciting stuff! This is The Coffee Shop and is a first draft.

They say I’m not the same now you’re not around,
Got me walking all over town,
Because maybe you’re there now,
And I’ll walk in the coffee shop,
And you’ll yell at me to stop,
Because you shouldn’t of forgot.
The love we had,
And you should have tried harder when it went bad,
Begging me to take you back because you’ve never been so sad.

And you get down on your knees,
Saying baby please,
I’ll never leave, I swear I’ll never leave.
I need you back,
Because my life don’t mean jack,
Just come back, baby come back.
I need your smile in the morning,
Your night time loving,
Without you my life means nothing, baby it means nothing.

Then reality hits me,
And it’s clear to see,
You’re still not where you’re supposed to be.
The coffee table in the corner,
Isn’t feeling any warmer,
Sat wishing someone had told me, should have warned her.
That love isn’t fairytales and a happy ending,
It’s broken hearts that need mending,
And smiling through it, pretending, just pretending.

But I can’t get this picture of you out of my head,
The traffic lights turn red,
And I’m wishing we could say what we never said.
Then I close my eyes,
And I don’t need to cry,
Because in my head there are no goodbyes.

And you get down on your knees,
Saying baby please,
I’ll never leave, I swear I’ll never leave.
I need you back,
Because my life don’t mean jack,
Just come back, baby come back.
I need your smile in the morning,
Your night time loving,
Without you my life means nothing, baby it means nothing.

As I start to lose faith in us,
I look out the window as you step off the bus,
Your name flashes up on my phone as I let it buzz.
You walk through the door of the coffee shop,
And you say baby stop,
Or my hearts going to stop.

And you get down on your knees,
Saying baby please,
I’ll never leave, I swear I’ll never leave.
I need you back,
Because my life don’t mean jack,
Just come back, baby come back.
I need your smile in the morning,
Your night time loving,
Without you my life means nothing, baby it means nothing.

So come back,
Baby I’m coming back,

Because without you my life don’t mean jack.

Tuesday, 11 February 2014

Back to September By Nichola J Feltham ©

You held my hand,
And touched my heart,
You helped me stand,
When I nearly fell apart.

Where did it go?
I felt it die,
Like a flower in the snow,
Why didn't we try?

I miss looking in your eyes,
I miss your soft lips,
And my heart still dies,
When I feel your fingertips.

The way our bodies fit together,
Like the last jigsaw piece,
And holding your hand forever,
Made me feel complete.

Let's go back to the start,
Because when I remember,
It rips my heart apart...
When I go back to September. 

Tuesday, 28 January 2014

Over and Out

Working on a Comedy Script at the minute, that's been in my 'slush pile' for a few months!

Effortless

Personally, I don't like this but someone might enjoy reading it.

He's pouring whisky down his throat,
for the third time this week,
It's Wednesday.
He tears himself away from the sofa,
where he slouched,
with his eyes glued to Match of the Day.
Walks slowly to the door,
where he inhales his cigarette,
eyes still fixated on the TV.
He asks what's for tea,
because we both know,
I'm making it.
He'll kiss me,
once or twice,
if he can be bothered.
Don't get me wrong,
he'll try sometimes,
with the wrong people.
I sit and think,
the same thing every night,
don't let him take the good in you.
Just be beautiful,
be the best you can be,
Don't be him, so effortless.

I Want, Never Gets.

I want to feel worth something.
I want someone to make effort to keep me in their lives.
I want someone who loves me in all the right ways.
I want happiness that doesn't go away.
I want people to be the best versions of themselves that they can.
I want people to be honest even when it hurts.
I want to feel like the most important thing to someone.
I want to be protected and feel safe.
I want someone who makes effort when he has me, not when he's lost me.
I want someone who never stops doing the little things.
I want to be treated like I mean something.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to be madly in love with someone who will never hurt me.
I want to be loved selflessly.

If you're not the guy to do it, then I don't want you.

8 things you need to know about me.

This was an exercise set in a writing workshop (around 8 months ago).
The prompts were given and we had to complete it.

1) I am most happiest when... I'm surrounded by kind hearts.

2) A habit I have is... Being too nice to the wrong people.

3) Something not many people know about me is... How little my happiness means to me over theirs.

4) Music for me is... Words I struggle to say myself.

5) Love to me is... Looking at someone and feeling your heart smile.

6) My earliest memory... Was my worst one, until nearly 2 years ago.

7) I last cried because... I miss you more than anyone will ever know.

8) My ideal party is... With the people I love, with the sound of laughter.



Winter Love By Nichola. J. Feltham 16.12.13 ©


The snow starts to settle,
No flowers in sight,
Not even a petal,
As the darkness consumes the light.

With noses so red.
Like the reindeer,
Woolley hats on their head,
Christmas is here.

Pull my socks to my knee,
My wellies so snug,
It feels so comfy,
Like a teddy bear hug.

Smiles surround me,
Sledging in the snow,
One, two, three,
Away we go.


Umpa Lumpa By Nichola. J. Feltham 27.09.13 ©

This is a sarcastic poem, based on when my sister in law went for a spray tan and came back very orange!

I want to be like you,
Slug eyebrows,
And green hair too.

I want to be like you,
Stretch legs,
And long toes too.

I want to be like you,
Please,
Can I be an Umpa Lumpa too?

We can swim in a chocolate filled sea,
I’ll let you,
Spray orange tan all over me.

Please can I be,
An Umpa Lumpa?

Orange as can be. 

Definition Of You By Nichola. J. Feltham 26.04.13


You’re extraordinary,
nothing like the ordinary.
Outstanding,
but you’ll never know.
Underrated,
don’t argue its been debated.

Agreeable,
 and you’ll agree.
Really annoying,
at night snoring.
Excitable,
over the smallest things.


Breathtaking,
sends my voice shaking
Exceptional,
your movements so gentle.
Anxious,
but no need to worry.
Unbelievable,
but I believe in you.
Thoughtful,
so humble.
Indecisive,
 it annoys me a little.
Funny,
until it hurts my tummy.
Utter pain,
in my butt.
Loving.

- loving you is easy.

Simple Things By Nichola. J. Feltham 26/04/13 ©

Surround me with love,
Happiness, fresh starts,
Beautiful people,
Kind words, honest hearts.

Make pain bearable,
Take my grief, their greed,
Surround me with this,
This is all I need.

Why This Is Me By Nichola. J. Feltham 14.04.13 ©

Because I can’t forget,
What you should regret,
A memory,
With no reset.

Because life is lost,
Cold, like frost,
Your actions came
At too high a cost.

Because it wasn’t fair,
For you, not to care,
About the child, who
Doesn’t feel safe anywhere.

This is why I forget,
To forget,
About the pain,

You ‘forgot’.

Bumble Bee By Nichola. J. Feltham 14.04.13 ©


I'd rather be a bee,
Than a wasp,

Because you see,
It has less of a cost

I’d fly through the country,
Hide out in lofts

But I'd rather be a bee,
Because of one thing,

You might agree,
It's quite a blessing

I couldn't watch the pain,
I'd cause with my sting,

I can't strike again,
Or feel a thing

I'd rather lose my life,
Than to see strife,

So you see –

I'd rather be a bee.

One Way Love By Nichola. J. Feltham ©


I'm your everything,
When we are alone,
But in company,
I am unknown.

You used to see straight through me,
And make my life so clear,
Now you look through me,
Like I’m just not there.

You used to make me smile,
With the love you’d bring,
Now you make me feel invisible,
Like I don’t mean a thing.

You are so oblivious,
To everything I give,
You don’t see behind this smile,
How much I hate to live.

You take advantage,
Of my kindness,
Stomping on my heart,
Arrogant to your own blindness.

If you don’t listen,
What else can I do?
My feelings are dismissed,
It’s easier for you.

I've told you how I feel,
Just like a ghost,
But you don’t seem to care,

And that’s just how it goes...

Friday, 24 January 2014

The Words That Didn’t Speak Loud Enough By Nichola J Feltham (01.10.13) ©

“I can’t wait to see you”

You used to say.

 

“I love you so much”

Would make my day

 

“I’ve never been so happy”

I loved to see you smile.

 

“I just want you here”

I’d stay a little while.

 

“I love you millions”

And I loved you so much more.

 

“I love waking up with you”

One thing I did adore.

 

“I can’t wait to kiss you”

The best part of my day.

 

“I miss you and I want you”

Is all that’s left to say.

 

You don’t get to see me,

Or love me without pain.

 

But you get to miss me,

And never wake up next to me again.

 

You don’t get to be “so happy”,

You only have yourself to blame.

 

You don’t get to kiss me,

You can love me from a million miles away.

 


This City Leaves Me Speechless (draft) By Nichola J Feltham

I watch the people walk by,
Sigh after sigh.

And I wonder how,
They dismiss right now.

Because they feel so sad,
But being here, I'm glad. 

My feet are on the ground,
And the world makes no sound.

My heart on a string,
The city plays it like a violin.

As I take the city in,
And birds begin to sing.

My body feels weak,
And I cannot speak. 


Breathless by Nichola J Feltham 24.01.14

You tell me this,
And I tell you that,
But I can't hear you,
From where you're sat.

Come a little closer,
Listen to what I need to say,
I don't want this to end,
Because we wasted another day.

We'll sit together,
Face this weather,
Never give up on this,
Because we want each other forever.

Don't care what anyone says,
Or that we lost so many days,
Because from today,
We'll love each other in a million ways.

We'll talk all night,
And hold each other tight,
Leave ourselves breathless,
If it makes this right.

Friday, 10 January 2014

Ryley

Happy birthday to the most beautiful reason to smile everyday, just knowing I had you for those months. You may be gone but I'm lucky to have even had that. 

I will love you and miss you forever. 
I will make you proud.

I Miss You Everyday by Nichola J Feltham (25.11.13) ©

Dear little one of mine,
I woke up this morning,
Wishing I could hear you crying.

Something many do not wish,
They take for granted,
These things they'd miss.

Didn't even reach noon,
Before that song played on the radio,
Daughtry - Gone Too Soon.

A tear crept passed my eye,
I tried to fight it,
But my eyes can't lie.

I said a little pray,
Because though it hurts,
I'm grateful I had you there.

I saw you yesterday,
Daydreaming what it would be like,
If he'd have let you stay.

I watched the sky last night,
And I felt you smile,
It reminded me you're alright.

I wrote you a letter today,
To remind you I love you,
It starts with 'I miss you everyday'.

Thursday, 9 January 2014

Missed Carriage by Nichola J Feltham (07.11.11) ©

You’re happy mummy,

You won’t be sad again,

Its okay now mummy,

There’s no more pain.

 

I’ll be kicking soon mummy,

And we’ll never be apart,

You really love me mummy,

I can feel it in your heart.

 

You’re scared mummy,

Waiting for your scan,

It’ll be okay mummy,

I’ll do all I can.

 

You’ve gone sad mummy,

I don’t understand,

I’ll be there in 6 months mummy,

To hold your hand.

 

Why are you hurting mummy,

I’m not going anywhere,

The midwife’s lying mummy

I’m staying right here.

 

Where am I going mummy,

I know you want me there,

You need me mummy,

I know you care.

 

You’re crying mummy,

I didn’t want to leave,

Please smile mummy,

I don’t want you to grieve.

 

I didn’t mean to hurt you mummy,

I didn’t want to die,

I’m so sorry mummy,

He says I’m going to live in the sky.